Hearbreaking

So this is what happened.

*ring ring*
"Hello?"
"Abby?"
"Yeah?"
"I miss you."
"I miss you too."
"I think we should date again."
...
"Can you see yourself marrying me?"
"What?"
"I know we have some growing room personality wise. And I know I have some life lessons to learn but at my core, I am who I've always been and who I'm always going to be. And so are you, so if you can't see yourself having a real future with me then it's a waste of time. We've dated for 4 years so you should know who I am and my potential. So I'm asking you one more time Ian,  can you see yourself marrying me?"
"...I...don't...know."

I don't know why I cried after that. I should have known his answer when I asked the first time. I should have known, and honestly I did I just had some small hope that maybe it would all work out and he would do something completely unexpected. But I knew.