First day of my life

Also, since I didn't get in I feel so much better. There is so much less stress on me now. I don't have to worry about how I'm going to pay for school and I don't have to worry about scholarship applications and I don't have to worry about anything. I'm excited because I feel like this is the right thing. I feel really good about my decision. I'm actually looking forward to everything now.

I made state in Extemporaneous speech in cosmetology. So next month I'll be going to the beach! Then, in April, I'll actually be going to prom (since it's not on the same day as state anymore.) Then in May it's GRADUATIONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And sometime in between now and then I will go take my written test and my state board exam and get my cosmetology license! And sometime before that too, I'll get my driver's license. And then in June, and July I'll work nonstop to save up money for my move. Then in August I'll go see Fall Out Boy, which is something I've wanted to do since I was in middle school!!!!!) and then we'll see how much money I have saved up and find a cute apartment in Austin!

I seriously couldn't think of a better outcome. I feel like I can breathe again. Like I'm starting over. I get to move to Austin and do whatever I want. I can go to as many concerts as I want, and I can meet new people. And I can go out with my friends from work, and I can stay out late with a boy, and I can get on a plane to florida and go to playlist live. I just can't believe how different my life is going to be after graduation. I've lived every moment doing exactly what was expected of me. And now I get to be exactly who I want to be. I get to go get my "stupid bird tattoo"and pierce whatever I want. And sit out on my balcony and play my violin, and just be happy. I'm already happier than I've been this entire year. All because I failed at something everybody though I wouldn't. And it's the best thing that ever happened to me.