Torn

I have a hugeeeeeee crush on this boy, and by boy, I mean 25 year old teacher. I know this is totally normal, but I seriously wish we could be together. We work so well together and we're both into the same sort of music and we both live for art. He's interested in my life, and I'm so interested in his. If we would have met another way we could date. But, because he's my teacher we can't. And as long as he's my teacher, I wouldn't want to. I would always be second guessing my grades and wondering if anyone knew, and I'm honestly so done with people speculation things in my life. Plus, he's already had his heart broken by some other girl, and I wouldn't want either of us to hurt each other either.

Then there's the biggest reason I don't want to date him: he's settled here. He's happy here. He loves this school. I can't wait to leave this school. He's into small town charm, and I'd rather have big city lights. I already have plans in motion to move away. (6 hours away to be exact) and even if we did date as soon as I graduated, I wouldn't want him to have to choose between doing what he loves here, and following me somewhere. That goes my way too, I wouldn't want to be in a position where I had to choose between following my dreams and then following my heart. Because if it came down to it, I would move to the city and leave everything behind. 

It's probably the gods doing him a favor, banning us from dating. Because he shouldn't be with someone who's willing to leave everything behind. He shouldn't have someone who can't even keep her own head on. He deserves someone really nice, and caring, and sweet.