Count.

Just take it one second at a time, Self.
One...two...three...four...
Keep counting however long it takes.
Don't keep them down.
Fucking puke and then flush them down the toilet.
Don't fight yourself.
One...two...three...four...
Breathe.
That's it.
Easy.
Flush the whole bottle, you don't need them.
Not tonight.
Not tonight.
Brush your teeth and go straight to bed.
Don't do anything stupid.
This is just another attempt.
Don't try this again.
It's too soon.
In fact, don't even take a sleeping pill.
Just lie there.
Good.
Just breathe.
One...two...three...four